AHHHH!!!

I had such a laid back day today, I was able to finally get all my pictures for my scrapbook onto paper so now all I have to do it decorate it...I spent quality time with my puppy...I watched Dear John again...My day was pretty good...

Scott called me at 4 to let me know he was on his way home...He didn't sound like himself...He then gets home and Oscar and I walk out of the spare bedroom and Scott tells me this....

"I got laid off today!"

WTF!!!!!???  Really!?  I'm so fricken sick of this company!!!  This is the same company that fired him two years ago because he had "a bad attitude" and he left the premises without permission!!!  Yes, I'm greatful that they gave him a job again, but they only did that because they REALLY needed someone!!!

But now I HATE this company and I REALLY hope it goes under!!  It's starting to look that way...But when you hire a manager to run it that has a history of having THREE other businesses go under what do you expect!!?

Scott's dad ran this shop for years and it was such a great business when his dad ran it...Then his dad couldn't run it anymore and he passed away, it started becoming shitty and that's when Scott got fired...Now it's doing worse than ever!

They hired seven guys which is not needed at ALL!  Scott knew this was coming, he just had a feeling but it doesn't make it any easier or any better that it happened!

To be completely honest this doesn't just suck it fucking sucks!! 

I know we will be ok finacially, but it's going to be very tight again, and it being very tight just stresses me out!  I was stressed about the possibility of him losing it when he first started, then it got a little better, then I was stressed out about the possiblity of me losing me job do to cuts now I'm feeling ok about my job and now this!!!  Really!!??  Job-loss sucks ass!! 

We planned on going downtown after he got out of work and then he came home and told me that and I really didn't feel like it anymore...But you know what?  I didn't let that piece of shit company get me down!! We went on with our plans and we had a good time!  And we are headed out in a couple hours to see the finale fireworks...And I feel good about not letting this crap get me down...Am I still thinking about it and a little upset? Yes, but I'm not going to let it bother me!!! I know we will be fine...

Scott losing his job does put a damper on our anniversary plans...We already booked the hotel for one night and we already paid for it and it's non-refundable, so we still have to go stay and I think we will have a great time...Small gifts and quality time together will be great!!  Yes, I will fully admit I WANT a gift for our anniversary and yes I will be a bummed if I don't get one...But I don't NEED one and I will be with the love of my life, that loves me for me and is the greatest man ever and THAT is what matters...My selfishness about not getting a big gift or an extravagant day will NOT get in the way of being with Scott that day...Because when it all comes down to it...All I NEED is HIM!!  And my love grows for him more and more every day!! I love him more now than I did when we first got married...And I LOVE HIM, and not the material things...Ok, so I lied I LOVE the material things too :)  (Yup, I just took a serious moment and turned it into a sarcastic moment :))

I just really hope that he finds something soon...Although I do enjoy having a house-wife :) haha...I do enjoy him working...I enjoy the extra money that comes in to not make it so tight...I will be praying LOTS for him to find a job and ask all of you to say a little prayer for him too...

I will try and keep my postive attitude and positive outlook about all this, but trust me it will be hard!