Personal post...I have to have a serious post once in awhile :)

Yup, I posted it!

*WARNING: Personal post that talks about woman things....Stop reading now, if you either don't care about the post of your not interested in reading about women things :) *

I don't talk about medical issues with me or personal issues much on here, because I don't want people to feel bad for me and I don't want it to seem that I'm asking for pitty...But I have been talking to an AMAZING blogger about this and I feel that I need to write this out for me to remember and maybe get some advice from all the other people that haven't been having any luck getting pregnant!

A couple years ago (2, I think) I went in and got a bunch of tests to find out why my cycles were so off (I went 1 to 2 months without a visit with Flo) and it's been like this since I went off the depo shot which was about 7-ish years ago...Yeah, it's taking that long for my body to get back to normal...Or I thought...The doctor didn't tell me much other than I was overweight and need to lose weight and quit smoking!  And that we would discuss being put on either Birth Control or another med to get my cycles back on track.  Nothing ever was said again!  If she wasn't concerned about it then I wasn't concerned...Well last year I went in for my womanly trip and got a complete blood work done.  I got the call from my doctor that my labs were off..I went in and she said that I was at the beginning stages of PCOS and that I need to really start watching my weight.  Of course she is soooo concerned about my weight that she doesn't care that I have PCOS...A couple months ago I went in the the yearly women thing and NOTHING was brought up by her about PCOS, and I didn't bring anything up about it, because apparently if she doesn't bring it up, it means I'm fine and nothing needs to be done....Well that's a load of bull...I show the nasty signs of having PCOS...I'm not going to go into detail, but they all suck...I also haven't seen FLO in THREE months!!  While I was at the doctors she said well since you are under the age of 35 you don't need another pap every year....OK, but what am I going to do about being "regular" and about trying to have a baby, because clearly after 7 years of unprotected sex with my husband, I should of been pregnant at least a couple times if there isn't anything wrong with me!!! 

So I will hopefully be making an appointment with my doctor or may even find a new one or maybe an actual womanly inside doctor that actually can figure out what is going on!!  I really think it's time for me to be a mom or at least take the steps to finding out if it will happen or if we will have to take the steps and save a shit load of money to adopt, or get a bigger house with a big lawn that can house the 6 dogs Scott said I could have if we weren't ever able to have children :) 

My family doesn't even know about this stuff...I keep my problems between Scott and I and now the whole blog community.  Scott's mom and brother occasionally read my blog and now they will know!  I'm totally fine with that...Writing about it and having them read about is so much easier for me...I don't like talking about it because it is a very sensitive and emotional subject for me.  So since I'm sure I will never meet any of you, I do feel pretty comfortable writing this post.  Scott has been so supportive with this...I had a breakdown the other night about this and he told me things that I really needed to hear and made me feel a hell of a lot better!!  He's such a great husband!! :)

So there you all have it!  My very first VERY personal, sensitive and emotional blog right out there for y'all to read!!  If anyone has any advice for me, please don't hesitate to give me some...I need all I can get before I start this journey of figuring out what the hell is going on with the inside lady parts :)